Don't every let your mistakes be the end of you. No matter how many times you fall down get up, and keep moving forward to a better place in your life... It's there.
Come to the edge. We might fall. Come to the edge. It’s too high! COME TO THE EDGE! And they came, and he pushed, and they flew.
I've always been a little afraid to live on the edge. I guess it's because your doing things that haven't been done or walking place where there are no footprints. I thinks it's natural to have some fear and doubt at first, but never stop in that place of fear and doubt always press on. I think at this point of my life I'd rather be a pathfinder then try and fit my feet in the trails of another man. My dreams are special and I've grown to love them because they're mine. They're my footprints to leave behind as a legacy to this world. So I come, he push, I fly...!
By far hands down Peter in the Bible is my favorite person because of how real he was. I can totally relate to a person that is so full of zeal for the Lord that you do crazy things. When you look at Peter, though he is always with the other disciples he is always written about alone. When Peter walked on the water he wasn't alone the other disciples were there but he had the courage to step out. On the day of Pentecost and everyone was filled with the Holy Spirit Peter stood up with the other 11 disciples but only he spoke... I guess what I'm trying to say is that many will stand up but only few will stand out. I would rather live my life like Peter, full of passion and ready for action cutting off ears and cursing at children lol.. But for real I never want to settle into a life of comfortable choices and fallen dreams. In the movie Transformers the girl (who's name is Mikaela by the way) asked the guy if they should get in the car (Bumble bee) after they just watched these "cars" turn into robots and fight each other. She was scared and asked if they should get into the car and go. He looks at her and says "do you want to look back 50 years from now and say you didn't have the guts to get in the car" that's my favorite line of that movie or in Brave Heart right before the big fight he tells them "they can run and live, but one day when there old and gray and in there beds they will give up every day from then till now to come back and face there oppressors for there freedom" I never want look back and say that I let fear stop me from living a life full of adventure or complacency got in the way of my dreams especially when it comes to the things of God. I want to walk on water, swim to the shore instead of paddle, rush the tomb, fight the soldiers, live like Simon but have my name changed to Peter, and at the end of it all go out still knowing that I am not worthy.
The past few days I have kinda been on a roller coaster. I felt like Daniel in the the Lions den. But God is always faithful. Have you ever felt like you were walking along with God just doing good and then you look up and your the only one in some dark alleyway with no one around (and not some cool NYC alley where you can just pull the fire escape down and go up to the 5 floor and dance all night) wait that's Save the Last Dance 8-) but rather it's a place where you completely feel that you have lost sight of God. I feel that Ive had one of those weeks.
Thursday, June 18, 2009
I'm the guy that always has to be chasing a dream or working to bring about some prior made plan. I love setting goals and making them happen.I love to live life to the fullest and here lately I've found myself just plain bored... I just got back from vacation which provided a break from being bored but now that I've returned I found myself back to being bored. My favorite band when I was in college was Edwin McCain, and he has a song call "what matters"... If you've never heard it you should. When I was younger I would climb on top of my house in the afternoons and I'd watch the sun set while I would dream "To be continued"
Ladies a man can se the things you do, even when you can’t. Even when you yourself can’t see the vibe you’re putting off, we can. And often times we make the mistake of assuming that it’s the message you are trying to send when that may not be the case at all. I watched the TV program the other day where there was a panel of men were on stage and women were standing up one by one and asking them to explain the way men think or answer certain question for them but from a man’s point of view. And one woman stood up and said that she believes that men are scared of her because she is a successful women… and right about the time that I laughed the man on TV laughed also. He said that if she doesn’t have a “rap sheet” then he or no man is scared of her. And that is so true. Her way of thinking is a bit prideful I feel. I feel that women that think this way are thinking a little too highly of themselves. And you best believe that most men share this opinion. Another thing women do that men hate is when a woman acts like she doesn’t need him or any man for that matter. Like we men are a part of there life that they can take or leave just like that. Most women bring that attitude into the relationship also whether they want to or not its some kind of defense mood they have to not get hurt like not talking about there man to other people or portraying to everyone that they’re crazy happy and completely caught up in him because what if something goes wrong or he leaves then she will be made to look like a fool. But when a woman acts like she doesn’t need a man, like he is just an add-on to her life like a purse and shoes he doesn’t see that as her being strong and independent, he see’s it as her not being vulnerable or “all in” that relationship and “if she is not “all in” or vulnerable, then why should I be” the man says. Women can usually dictate the affection she wants from a man even the amount both good and bad by her “honest” showing of her feelings
Every since I can remember my mother has always been there and though she has always proven her love for me she like most mother has nagged and complained at me for almost my entire life hahaha… From “clean your room” to “tuck in your shirt” to “you never call enough” (that one being my favorite) why would we call if all there going to do is complain but that beside the point… even now our mothers will still find things to complain about, they may be little things but they are constant. And with this constant ear full today’s man have the words complaint and mother as equal. Mothers can be a “nag” and no love be lost from there sons to them, it’s the beauty of being a mother. Now other women on the other hand don’t have such magic. Men have you every been with a woman that complains ALL THE TIME….? I have and it stunk…! Sometimes I think women just complain because they have mouths. Every man has at some point found himself starring in the face of the women that he is dating or married to, shoot sometimes on the first date and watching her mouth go a million miles an hour abut something that in his mind is just not that serious. And Im not talking about something that a man just doesn’t find important but it is to a women like put the toilet sit back down. I’m talking about something silly like the TV being to loud or him finding a parking spot. Things that you really can over look I feel most men will, but something in a women’s head just won’t let her overlook it she has to say something and give the man an ear full. I feel most women live by a double-standard. Take the situation with the couple John and Kate plus 8 though I don’t and never will agree with John leaving Kate for another women it didn’t take me by surprise, From the first show I saw I said to myself “man she treats him like crap..!” men will only take so much before he starts seeing you like his mother and once that happens he is on his way out the door. In the end a man will stay longer then he should for “good” sex or friendship in women, but just know women eventually those things can be replaced… But his mother can not. So stop trying to. I say all this but let also say that I’m happy that God has brought a woman into my life that makes me happy
